Dad, it still doesn't seem real that you are not here anymore you were still young and went far too soon. I wasn't ready for this and neither were you. everyone says it wont feel real until your funeral but the days are getting harder I can't believe it's been over a week already I just miss you so much, I miss your smile and your voice and our phone calls. William misses you loads too and doesn't understand why he can't see you I know he's only 3 but how do I explain to him and Baby J.J is growing nicely can't believe he will be born in 8 weeks and you are not here to see it. anyways I will write again soon just know I miss you and love you always. you and Daniel look after each other and my Nanna and Grandad's and Tony too.